miercuri, ianuarie 28, 2009

Daca as fi fost barbat...

Mi-as fi dorit sa fiu barbat.
Daca as fi fost barbat...as mai fi jucat si azi fotbal cu baietii o data pe saptamana. Si baschet. Si ping-pong. Si as fi fost in stare sa fac flotari.
Daca as fi fost barbat, as fi iesit periodic la o "bere" cu baietii, pretext pentru a discuta despre politica, sport si femei inteligente.
Daca as fi fost barbat, as fi purtat camasi.
Daca as fi fost barbat, as fi condus prin Bucuresti.
Daca as fi fost barbat, as fi fost mai rational si mai putin sentimental.
Daca as fi fost barbat, as fi facut mai mult si as fi visat mai putin.
Daca as fi fost barbat, mi-as fi cautat independenta la 14, 18 sau 20 de ani, nu la 30.
Daca as fi fost barbat, as fi initiat, nu as fi asteptat.
Daca as fi fost barbat, as fi daruit multe flori femeilor din viata mea. Fara un motiv anume.
Daca as fi fost barbat, as fi fost mereu barbierit.
Daca as fi fost barbat, as fi fost privit cu ingaduinta cand as fi spus ca dansul nu e pasiunea mea.
Daca as fi fost barbat, mi-ar fi placut ploaia si plimbarile de unul singur.
Daca as fi fost barbat, m-ar fi chemat Alin George.
Daca as fi fost barbat, nu m-ar fi deranjat ca am 30 de ani si nu am copiii si casa mea.
Daca as fi fost barbat, nu mi-as fi tocit coatele pe bancile scolilor, ci poate faceam misto de tocilare.
Daca as fi fost barbat, as fi fost romantic.
Daca as fi fost barbat, probabil azi as fi fost medic. Pediatru, neaparat.
Daca as fi fost barbat, as fi intrat in politica.
Daca as fi fost barbat, as fi putut spune NU mai des.
Daca as fi fost barbat, as fi fost puternic.

Nu stiu de ce, dar azi mi-as fi dorit sa fi fost barbat.

joi, ianuarie 15, 2009

marți, ianuarie 13, 2009


...un clip pe care-l stiam de mult, dar care zilele astea cand l-am revazut m-a pus mai mult pe ganduri. Ce poate fi mai emotionant pentru un artist aflat in mijlocul multimii? Ce-si poate dori mai mult?
Dar oare eu si tu, cei care nu am facut din arta o meserie...pe noi ce ne implineste? Ce ne emotioneaza? Noi nu urcam pe o scena, noi nu cantam, noi nu dansam, noi nu ne adresam unei multimi formate din sute sau mii de oameni care platesc sa ne vada, sa ne auda, sa ne aplaude, sa ne arunce flori... Noi suntem cei care muncim in birouri, in sali de clasa, in cabinete, in redactii, in spatii largi sau ingramaditi in "custi"...Unii lucram cu oameni, altii cu hartii, cu mai multa sau mai putina tehnologie. Unii lucram in echipa, altii singuri. Unii primim recunostinta si aprecierile celor din jur, altii nu. Unii mergem la munca voiosi, plini de entuziasm, pentru ca s-a nimerit ca meseria sa fie si pasiune. Altii ne taram picioarele greoi, urmarind obsedant minutarul agatat de mana stanga sau calendare suspendate pe pereti.
Si totusi...noua ce ne aduce emotie sau tremur in glas sau lacrimi pe obraji?

joi, ianuarie 08, 2009

Je m'en fiche-ism de iarna

La multi ani, 2009! Nu te-am simtit venind, nu te constientizez pe de-a-ntregul nici acum, desi te-ai instalat bine merci in calendare de cateva zile bune.
Nu stiu daca din vina mea, a celor din jur, sau din alte motive, am bifat sarbatorile anului 2008/2009 fara sa simt. Nu am simtit Craciunul, n-am simtit trecerea in Noul An, n-am simtit Boboteaza sau Sf Ion; nu simt iarna cu exceptia noptilor friguroase si a picioarelor inghetate sau a gerului care-mi ciupeste tot mai nesimtit obrajii.
Poate problema mea e ca nu simt alb iarna asta. Simt amestecat: rosu cu picaturi de verde, uneori galben, gri sau chiar negru. Asa...de-a valma. Si totusi...prea putin, mult prea putin alb. Nici un snow angel iarna asta. Aripi? Da. In plin proces de modelare. A, nu, sunt departe de a fi gata. Mai dureaza pana se vor putea intinde spre un zbor albastru. Dar sunt pe "to do" list. Si pe "vreau" list. Si pe "nu ma las" list. Si pe toate listele a caror denumire are "optimismul" ca prefix.

Pana una alta, in lipsa de alta inspiratie, apelez la desteptaciunea altora si postez niste chestii pe care le-am citit azi. Daca nu altceva, macar ne pun putin pe ganduri sau isca vreo furtuna prin creiere, ceva. In cazul in care nu ne-au inghetat cu totul gandurile.
Asadar...Paulo Coelho (daca am inteles eu bine) zice dupa cum urmeaza (nu ca m-as da in vant dupa individ- e mult prea la moda pentru gusturile-mi, dar...):

Inventory of normality

I decided to conduct a survey among my friends about what society considers to be normal behavior. What follows is a list I have made of some of the absurd situations we face in day-to-day life, just because society sees them as normal:

1] Anything that makes us forget our true identity and our dreams and makes us only work to produce and reproduce.

2] Making rules for a war (the Geneva Convention).

3] Spending years at university and then not being able to find a job.

4] Working from nine in the morning to five in the afternoon at something that does not give us the least pleasure, so that we can retire after 30 years.

5] Retiring only to discover that we have no more energy to enjoy life, and then dying of boredom after a few years.

6] Using Botox.

7] Trying to be financially successful instead of seeking happiness.

8] Ridiculing those who seek happiness instead of money by calling them “people with no ambition”.

9] Comparing objects like cars, houses and clothes, and defining life according to these comparisons instead of really trying to find out the true reason for being alive.

10] Not talking to strangers. Saying nasty things about our neighbors.

11] Thinking that parents are always right.

12] Getting married, having children and staying together even though the love has gone, claiming that it’s for the sake of the children (who do not seem to be listening to the constant arguments).

12ª] Criticizing everybody who tries to be different.

14] Waking up with a hysterical alarm-clock at the bedside.

15] Believing absolutely everything that is printed.

16] Wearing a piece of colored cloth wrapped around the neck for no apparent reason and known by the pompous name “necktie”.

17] Never asking direct questions, even though the other person understands what you want to know.

18] Keeping a smile on your face when you really want to cry. And feeling sorry for those who show their own feelings.

19] Thinking that art is worth a fortune, or else that it is worth absolutely nothing.

20] Always despising what was easily gained, because the “necessary sacrifice” – and therefore also the required qualities – are missing.

21] Following fashion, even though it all looks ridiculous and uncomfortable.

22] Being convinced that all the famous people have tons of money saved up.

23] Investing a lot in exterior beauty and paying little attention to interior beauty.

24] Using all possible means to show that even though you are a normal person, you are infinitely superior to other human beings.

25] In any kind of public transport, never looking straight into the eyes of the other passengers, as this may be taken for attempting to seduce them.

26] When you enter an elevator, looking straight at the door and pretending you are the only person inside, however crowded it may be.

27] Never laughing out loud in a restaurant, no matter how funny the story is.

28] In the Northern hemisphere, always wearing the clothes that match the season of the year: short sleeves in springtime (however cold it may be) and a woolen jacket in the fall (no matter how warm it is).

29] In the Southern hemisphere, decorating the Christmas tree with cotton wool, even though winter has nothing to do with the birth of Christ.

30] As you grow older, thinking you are the wisest man in the world, even though not always do you have enough life experience to know what is wrong.

31] Going to a charity event and thinking that in this way you have collaborated enough to put an end to all the social inequalities in the world.

32] Eating three times a day, even if you’re not hungry.

33] Believing that the others are always better at everything: they are better-looking, more resourceful, richer and more intelligent. Since it’s very risky to venture beyond your own limits, it’s better to do nothing.

34] Using the car as a way to feel powerful and in control of the world.

35] Using foul language in traffic.

36] Thinking that everything your child does wrong is the fault of the company he or she is keeping.

37] Marrying the first person who offers you a position in society. Love can wait.

38] Always saying “I tried”, even though you haven’t tried at all.

39] Putting off doing the most interesting things in life until you no longer have the strength to do them.

40] Avoiding depression with massive daily doses of television programs.

41] Believing that it is possible to be sure of everything you have won.

42] Thinking that women don’t like football and that men don’t like interior decoration.

43] Blaming the government for everything bad that happens.

44] Being convinced that being a good, decent and respectful person means that the others will find you weak, vulnerable and easy to manipulate.

45] Being convinced that aggressiveness and discourtesy in treating others are signs of a powerful personality.

46] Being afraid of fibroscopy (men) and childbirth (women).

47] And finally, thinking that your religion is the sole proprietor of the absolute truth, the most important, the best, and that the other human beings in this immense planet who believe in any other manifestation of God are condemned to the fires of hell.

Gata! Cred ca ajunge postarea pana mi se mai dezmorteste muza si-mi mai adoarme din je m'en fiche-ism. A bientot si spor la hibernarea simturilor!